Tag Archives: what am i doing with my life?

Our little group has always been, and always will be, until the end

I have spent much of the day listening to/watching Tori Amos videos on YouTube.  It’s good background music for whatever else I’m doing.  Which is mainly pinning stuff on Pinterest, and Facebook scrolling.  I’m spending more and more time alone.  … Continue reading

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But she could try…

This song has been in my head all day.  Has been a favorite of mine since…2004-ish?  It was around that time, I think, that I first heard MCR.  This song will always remind me of snowy drives, isolation in a … Continue reading

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Stupid.

I acted inappropriately. I said things I shouldn’t have, and stuck my nose in where it didn’t belong.  I am not sorry about how I feel about the situation; however, I am sorry about how irrationally I acted and spoke. … Continue reading

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And I live in the numbness now, in the background

  I sit on the couch a lot.  Sometimes I look at pretty pictures. Sometimes I look at pictures of who I wish to be.  Sometimes I just zone out.  But a lot of times, I reflect.  I probably spend … Continue reading

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Until you’re resting here with me

I am currently in bed, at 830pm, like the octogenarian that I am. Really, work is pushing me to my limits these days, as it has been for a while.  Today – 10 hours, no break.  Tomorrow will probably be … Continue reading

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Well I guess this is growing up…

At work, we’re in the process of updating the company website.  Which is good, since besides job postings, it hasn’t been changed in the almost 4 years I’ve been there.  The “about us” section had just my 3 bosses on … Continue reading

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Lost without you

It does not help that I’ve been sick on and off over the past few days.  It does not help that I’m having a stressful week at work.  It does not help that I’m PMSing.  It does not help that … Continue reading

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I sing because I’m happy…

Just putting some thoughts down. The appointment with my new shrink went well.  She’s very quiet, but listened and explained things to me.  For now, we’re mainly working on the Depression, aka “Major depressive affective disorder recurrent episode severe degree … Continue reading

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Hurricane What’s-Her-Name

Every day, I am learning the perils of a shitty work/life balance. I have very little time or energy for my husband or my friends.  I find myself withdrawing from social interactions, where I normally used to thrive.  Now I … Continue reading

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Conversations

It broke my heart to find out that from two opposite ends of the spectrum – we were the same.  The concerns, fears…all of it.  Manifested differently, and yet the same.  But there’s a comfort in that as well.  The … Continue reading

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